the conversation was going easily & they were talking in a certain topic when all of a sudden he interrupted the conversation by mentioning how beautiful she is ,,
miraculously she didn’t realize it until later; she was concentrating in the subject that she didn’t even read his words ..
that was good for her; she don’t want to fall under his spell, if she has read his words on time she would have been confused and wouldn’t know what to do ,,which will eventually be a mess
she was confused after she realized he said so; but she felt good he said that and it came out of nowhere; it wasn’t expected .. she never expects he would write that for her .
she is in a stage where u can call it upgrading/ evolution or any word that carries the same meaning
she is learning and she is changing
she is learning how to deal with new situations with diff. people
she is learning to accept changes rapidly
she is learning how adapt with them
she has a lot to take at one time;
she is trying to slow down to understand
she is slowing down because she is new to everything in her life
whole new situations which she never experienced before
she is slowing down because she is afraid to lose what she gained
all what she need is to have time to re-set her rules
re-set her mood; her routine
she need to evaluate the last couple of months in her life
she knows writing would help
and thats what she started doing
she agreed with herself on slowing down just to have time to do the right action at the right time
she don’t want to mess up again
she reached a point where she got all what she asked for kind of stability but she is still working hard and praying for this stage to stay as long as it can be
the only thing she is aiming for now is to win the challenge that she accepted months ago
she said she can & she will do whatever she wants but she sometimes realize how big & hard the situation is
she is in really huge challenge and thats why she is always afraid to lose or to do it wrong
her biggest fear is to give up; she is not a quitter and she totally refuses to be a one
weak and not able to complete what she started before
she think of every step before implementing it bec. of the fear of not being able to finish what she begun ..
she is too weak to resist your effect.
She was just shaking hands and when you pulled her close, hold her hand strong between yours, She realized how weak she is
when you pulled her close to you and your face was in front of hers, your eyes were looking right into hers, She knew she won’t be able to look into your eyes
she didn’t, she was too confused and somehow irritated because you made it clear how weak she is when you did this, She is not used to face this truth.
when you pulled her close, and you were talking to her general, random talk, she was doing everything possible to get out of this situation,
even the way she kept thinking days ago of how she will present to you what she wanted to say, it all disappeared and evaporated when you took your surprising move,
She was running away,
You confused her.
She know there is nothing from you or nothing will be between you and her, but although she know that; she was hoping of a longer time of this weird holding thing;
you showed her the point of weaknesses,
she always said that even if she faced a similar situation it would be nothing because she know how to deal and handle it
but you showed her she can’t
she need to know how to resist
the facts concluded from this situation is that she is weak, she need to learn how not to be , she felt good when you did so but at the same time she was lost.