They taught me how to say ” Astaghferu Allah”. They say it helps in the healing process.
So I remembered their words!
I get busy and bury myself in endless tasks at work.
I read your name on my mobile. I get stuck.
Eyes fixed on the screen, mind reliving our moments together.
“Astaghferu Allah”, I say.
“Focus. You have work to do, deadlines to meet. Focus.” – said the distracted mind.
I saw you. I saw you putting your arms around her as you walked down the hall.
It makes sense! She is now closer to you than I used to do. The sight of you two puts extra weight on my heart, but I push a smile anyway.
That is what they taught me. Fake it until you make it. So I try.
I am on my way home, I pass by your house. Your perfume “my favorite” is in the air.
Heart pounding. Heartbeats racing. Tears pouring.
I catch myself crying. Stop! Remember the smile. So I smile.
I walk. Faster steps, unsteady but fast.
I leave with no look backs for today!
I repeat “Astaghferu Allah”. They said it is a pain killer, so I overdosed it.
— Astaghferu Allah: is a religious saying in Islam that means Ask for God’s forgiveness, help, and support. A mean of worship that is always thought to be good to start your prayers with. —
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